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LOL..... it have be a long time since i have posted something.... hmmm.. what to say.... just reach home from doing the stuff i actually said i wanted to complete it the other day... bloody candles.. so hot.... yup yup..it was meant to be use tonight... 30 of them and 8 different smell or something u call it... i don knoe how to say.... why 30?? cause we started our love path on the date 30 then why 8? cause it was at aug^^ yup yup burn my hand with wax... whole hand red red..... carry a heavy shoulder back hoping to see u when i reach home.. lol just bluffing my way through...... yup yup ... i guess tonight should be .... me and the candles i made with my bare hands... When u fail to plan u plan to fail.... honesty to me.. this words are really a joke ...... i don believe it anymore..... i also don knoe why this phrase is inside my head.... and ya... i get a very good reply from a friend called nicanor of what is hope this is what he said"hope beliving in smth not yet seen, but having a constant expectation of good things to come" it is the best answer someone can give me... and ya ... honestly tonight is more than what i have told you..... i m typing out just to nag or something... ya... here is the plan...

08.30am-go bath..!
09.00am- go take bus to fetch baby...
10.30am-Walk to a flower shop at bugis... buy some sunflower or something for baby.
11.30am-give baby Flower at first sight...
12.00pm-Time to eat lunch..
1pm-reach Kallang; go ice skating
3.30pm-watch alvin and chipmunks at 4+ movie...
6pm- bring baby to Ecp... either to skate to my secret place or walk there....
8pm- Time for dinner...
10pm- show face at friend house and place some games.
12.00am- Say something in my heart that i always wanted to tell baby
1am- reach home. bath!
1.30am- while baby bathing prepare the candles...
1.30am onwards- the rest is up to her........

yup yup.... this is the real thing. and it just come out like that... i don even need to think about what to do... just boom and there... so ya... and my buddy called to wish me this and that.. he said he will be stop at Singapore for 31 dec and 1 dec.for new year count down..... 1 dec at 2pm he will be flying off again... he ask me to invite u to count down together.... i said maybe i just join u guys or something ba... my gf going out with friends to count down... so don want to bother her ...he reply " WTF you doing..... i thought u have all those things plan out??? what is that for man.... and isnt that the first time she having a count down outside??? sigh i really don knoe what u doing la..." i just said haha.. it is ok.. there is always next year... he just said bye bye... and that it. er.... the 12am thing i wanted to say i think i will type it out here. i don think i will have the mood to sms it to u anyway.. Hey baby, i just want to say... the year 2009 was really a very bad year for me... but i m glad that i have you in my life... though i m the least sweet and u like to show me poker face boyfriend... but ya.. i still love you the way u are... Jia you for the up coming work ya? and let work hard for not onli the taipei trip but also for our future and our kids that will be coming along if we got married... Days with you are really nice ^^ i can find peace and enjoy the beat of your heart... and the sound of your breath... I m just glad to have you here with me.. I love You! so ya... just to let some of the steam in me out... hahahahaha..... i love you... have a great time with ur friends ya.. muackz!

with love

Baby, I dont know who came up with this but,

If you're asking if I need you, the answer is forever.
If you're asking if I will leave you, the answer is never.
If you're asking what I value, the answer is you.
If you asking if I love you, the answer is I do.

I love you, I love you, I love you.
Thankyou for the wonderful Christmas :)

baobei??

Baby???? where you go?? anything happen that u want to talk to me about.???? hmmmmm u MIA so long liao.. i m kind of worry baby.. sorry my love... anything just talk to me about it ma.. Love Love.. I miss you and i love you.. you take care ya Muackz!

always with you.

You're not alone baby, I love you :)

ouch

Ah!!! the pain in my stomach is back again.... it hurt so much.. it like something is ripping out from my body... i cant take it anymore.... i hug myself to bear the pain... there is nothing else i can do.... sob sob... baby i need you

baby girl.. i just want you to know.. i love you

Baby girl..Forever hand in hand,step by step walking together.Always i will remember Our lives will be together.whether or not it is sunny or raining.Don't ever let go the lives we have together.
I cried tears for you and you for me,regrading to our love, i will always smile brightly.Missing time that passes, i thank you for waiting. Now it is time to take your hand, and bring you into my heart.How have you been lately? My aching heart can't speak up.Wondering if you have been well.Worrying about your daily life.Do look after yourself and press on,i won't let you worry me for even a second.Thinking of us every second of the day. And all the things we have done.Walking just by your side was the most romantic things to do.You are my angel,giving me strength to carry on.The warm greeting, make me happiest of all.. You build a corner in my heart. Where i can hide when i m weak. Loving me gently with hands like wings. i don't want to miss holding you again. Happiness isn't complete without you by my side. i love to see you walking towards me with that cute smiling face.My love for you will not change, it will last for a life time. On this road of happiness, i want to walk to with you hand in hand. Worrying if you have been sleeping well. i want to be by your side. to coax you to bed. The photos of your smile, Our sweet bickering, i pray for the wind to carry my longing and take to me the place of me kissing your lips. I will bring you to admire the nice scenery of the whole. That will return into a love poem. On one sunny afternoon. I m walking the streets again.Your shadow and your smell isn't there anymore.Thinking about how i can't be by your side. i feel sad. Passing by the corner that belong to us,walking the streets we have walk before. Oh my love when will you be by my side.. A heart need a pair of hands to held. Our happy ending need 2 pair of hands to write. Sarangheyou my love

where you go??? i miss you so...

Today... i went dinner with my clubs mate... it was a celebration for our 1st position.... everyone have a partner with them.... all but me.... even our coach have his wife with him... we sat and talk about the match and hows life for each another.... then one of them ask me... where your girlfriend??? i said well she overseas that why cant attend the dinner tonight... then one of the girls said.. hey man take it easy .... she onli away for a few days.... your friend jack here was worst than you man... he cry everyday till the day i came back.. i look at her and smile. Then all of them went for a slow dance with their partner... i feel so alone... haiz how i wish i can dance with you too..... i miss you my love... come back soon i want to hug u too all....

i will...

Just to let my love serene know..... i will always protect you... even if we are not together... i will still protect you...i will be your shelter during the storm...or protect you from the harmful sun ray. I will be your float to float on the stormy seas....i will be your chief... to cook you food when you are hungry... i will be your blanket or jacket to keep you from the cold....i will be whatever things you need in life..... that is just what i wanted to do.. i m willing to suffer whatever it takes... i just love you one person thats all..

See you soon...

A drop of tears drop when i know when u are leaving..................... i thought i was tired that why my eyes turn watery.... but it is not.... i feel empty...... i feel cold..... and i can do anything about it.... for once i really want to be by your side this instants. i want to take care of you till i draw my last breath...... i want to travel with you... whenever you go....goodbye and be back soon my love...... truly....... i miss you badly......

pain pain pain

AH!!!!!!!!!...... it is killing me.... i got bad bad stomach ache... it is killing me.. baby how i wish u are here to sayang me... i wanted to call you... but don want to spoil your fun... haiz...... this pain is like something is digging out of my body i cant take it... very pain....

How i wish to be by your side

你說過愛在我一生裡
有過快樂與心碎
你說過愛在我的身邊
悄悄看我熟睡
聽說你在這刻想我
聽說你在記起我
我也記著每刻往事
也記掛你在哪兒
時日如飛 今天在我心裡
是充滿不褪的記憶
時日如飛 我似呆在這地
任一天天過去 任一生飄過去
任一切飄去再沒法追
心中想你 如今想你
懷念昨天的你
懷念著你 懷念著你
紅著淚眼在記起
心中想你 如今想你
懷念昨天的一切
懷念著你 懷念著你
流著淚眼自覺得深愛著你

Sometimes.... i m lost

Haiz.... Today Should be a very happy day for me... cause i get to see my baobei in her beautiful dress and me getting 1st in my rugby match.... hmmm..... i really feel so insecure so afraid of losing you... so afraid that today will be one of the few last times i can hug you, feel you and kiss you... i really don't know what to do......... for the first time i m scare of losing someone i love so deeply... i don't react this way in the past.. i don't know why.... sorry if i m begin paranoid but... ya... i m scare.........My mind keeps thinking.... what if you went to his house?what if you dance with him during prom...what if you guys did something and didnt tell me? what if this and what if that.... i m really going crazy soon...... How i wish u can be by my side to comfort me or something...... Really sorry if i m like that... this part of me... it is really hard to change... i m still struggling with it.... my buddy told me not to worry so much... but i just can't help it....
if i wrote something that is hurting towards you, i m very very sorry... i don't mean to... beside typing out hoping that it will make me feel better, i don't know what else i can do. i feel very scare,very lonely, very cold right now. i wonder what else can i do... to make this pain away.... tears is flowing down... i can't help it..... my mind keeps thinking non-stop.. i really want to dig out my brain and leave it there till it calm down... Baby i love you.... take care and enjoy your prom and your malaysia trip... haiz hope to see you soon

hugs!

I wanna lean on you and sleep together :)