The Last And Final

I don't Want you to see this post but it is ok if u have seen it.....I have decided to leave as a lover and stay as a close friend... But This is what i really feel .

You ask me if I love you ,And I choke on my reply,I’d rather hurt you honestly,Than mislead you with the truth.,And who am I to judge you,On what you say or do?,I’m only just beginning to see the real you, sometimes when we touch,The honesty’s too much And I have to close my eyes and hide.I wanna hold you til I die Til we both break down and cry,I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides.Romance and all its strategy Leaves me battling with my pride But through the insecurity Some tenderness survives I’m just another writer Still trapped within my truth A hesitant prize fighter Still trapped within my youth. At times I’d like to break you And drive you to your knees At times I’d like to break through And hold you endlessly At times I understand you And I know how hard you’ve tried I’ve watched while love commands you And I’ve watched love pass you by At times I think we’re drifters Still searching for a friend A brother or a sister But then the passion flares again



如果两个人的天堂
象是温馨的墙
囚禁你的梦想
幸福是否象是一扇铁窗
候鸟失去了南方
如果你对天空向往
渴望一双翅膀
放手让你飞翔
你的羽翼不该伴随玫瑰
听从凋谢的时光
浪漫如果变成了牵绊
我愿为你选择回到孤单
缠绵如果变成了锁链
有一种爱叫做放手/抛开诺言
有一种爱叫做放手
为爱放弃天长地久
我们相守若让你付出所有
让真爱带我走
为爱结束天长地久
我的离去若让你拥有所有
让真爱带我走说分手

为了你失去你
狠心扮演伤害你
为了你离开你
永远不分的离去!

I love it

This was meant to be a letter..... I Love it when u call me baby, lao gong, baobei, pig pig,zhu zhu and bendan along with many others... I love it when u told me u love me.. i love it when u told me u miss me.. I love it when u hug me while watching tv or movie together.. i love it when u tease me... I love it when u show me those cute faces of yours... I love it when we look at each other in the eyes and said nth... I love it when u kiss me.. I love it When u sleep next to me, You always seem at ease.. I love it when we were hugging each other while sleeping... I love Everything single little and big things about you... I really Love You... And i will miss it really alot... You really are a precious part of my life... I love You.. Take care...

So let's communicate and share our love.

“Good relationships balance over time. This means that at any particular point in time, the relationship may appear quite unbalanced: One partner may be more nurturing; one may be more needy; one may be providing all the financial support, etc. But if both partners are loving, understanding, giving, dedicated and flexible, then the relationship can handle all kinds of ups and downs, and still be strong, exciting and, yes, romantic. The best relationships are well balanced. Not a delicate balance; not a static balance- but a dynamic ever-changing balance.”
- Gregory Godek

I love you :)

Heee pig pig I miss you too.

To remember.

12 Jan; Thank you baobei for waking early, for accompanying me to the doctor, for doing small things like buying food and drinks for me. I know I'm always very unsweet when it comes to words. But I love you and I really appreciate all that you're doing for me. Forgive me for my forgetfulness, I also dunno whats wrong with me. @_@ But I wouldn't forget you. Love love!

13 Jan; Today the silly baobei came down all the way to go to the library with me, though he planned to stay at home. Sorry for the short temper today, I know that I'm not doing things right. Maybe it's the irritating foot or something. But darling be sure that you're so very important in my heart. And I still wanna eat ice cream. Hehe.

14 Jan; My bendan came early in the morning to take me to the doctor's again. Today he was more sensitive and caring, helping me carrying things. I know I don't really show it, but I appreciate that you're more caring and help me with my things. We went to watch movie, Have you heard about the Morgans, where he cried. =x I know this is where I should be more softer and nicer, but yeah I didnt. Sorry.. I'm trying to be less critical..but for now, this is me.
Darling, I love you and dont give up on yourself no matter what. Jiayou in whatever you want to do, whether it's studies, family, basketball, band, work or yourself.

Why do you always smell so good to me even when you're not?
I miss you.

Darling

Darling baby, just a few more hours I'll be back, listening to your voice, telling you all the things that happened, complaining about things, listening to you talk and complain too. We'll be exchanging the longing and the misses we have for each other these 5 days. I can't wait to hug you and smell my darling chou chou bendan :)